Someone came into my home and yelled at me and my family today. All day long I’ve been dealing with feelings of insecurity, fear and anger.
It is weird being an adult that can deal with strong emotions, and then experiencing someone else having an episode where they apparently can’t control themselves. I’ve had no recourse or closure, I just got yelled at and then was left to wallow in the silence that happens after a violent act.
I haven’t been yelled at in many years, and it really puts me on edge, because those times it was followed by the people yelling at me doing things to actively harm me or my living situation. I’ve had my home destroyed, or been beaten, or kicked to the streets.
And writing this I just realized the last time someone yelled at me was triggered by that person having lost a loved one. I understand that grief is powerful, and can overwhelm people. It is difficult to communicate a healthy way to emote to those that are in mourning.
I don’t have any answers. Think I will just take a shower and cry.