Finding a pace

I’ve been really busy lately. Almost in a daze. I am content and generally at peace, but I need to close some loops.

My eyes have gotten worse. Or the glowing has gotten intense. Or I’ve always squinted and just didn’t notice.

Or all three.

When I am around Susan my mind flip-flops between concern for her welfare (she is fine, in great health, and there is a person growing inside of her) and the realization that I will be holding a child that shares my karma, one day.

That last part is a neat interesting sensation, the flood of chemicals hitting my awareness, telling it romantic stories of parenthood and possession. Normally I try to fight it, but I am trying to relax, unclench and breath.

My work status is a lot. I am not sure it if is enough, but there is plenty. Loops. Closing.

Assam is a state in India. Wonderful tea is grown there.