I went to bed at around 5:30AM. That is standard for me. However, it is non-standard to wake up a few hours later, shivering and feeling like my skin and my muscles want to trade places.
I somehow communicated to Susan that I was a gateway to hell, and we took my temperature: 95.6. Well, we knew why I was shivering, at least.
So, I spent most of the day in bed, talking to myself. I don’t know much about the actual condition, and I don’t want to make light of it, but I refer to my sick mind mode as schizophrenia. At the very least, I split off my personalities so they may enjoy my misery to the fullest.
Normally this means I hallucinate for 10 hours, while my mind searches for media references and other ideas, and then discusses it as if “we” could come up with a plan to heal me through the power of crazy. Truth be told, I do this often, except “heal” is replaced with “wake”, and my brain seems to try to spend a large amount of time by trying to convince itself of its superiority, while also self-realizing that lucid dreaming is a delusion.
At any rate, this is what I did today, with four of me. Each maiki seemed to correspond to a position of laying down, the aggregate affect being that in heated discussion I was made to toss and turn non-stop. Causality? I don’t care. Despite my misgivings on that state of minds, I really do enjoy talking to myself.
So, around 3:30PM I woke up covered in sweat (all the bedding had joined me in this state). And while I didn’t feel 100% (I felt like I had been swimming for hours, but unable to feel my body becoming sore until that very moment), I was able to get out of bed without falling back into bed/fetal position/unconsciousness. Just in time to rinse off my sheen of illness and watch over Clover while Susan got some rest.
I guess the point is, besides cataloging and whining about my illnesses, is that in a few years I am going to be going through my contact list to find tribe members to take Clover to the park for like, 12 hours. In the meantime, Susan and I really need to schedule these things better.